don’t ask yourself “what is love?” ask yourself “who is love?”

what is love? a lot of people ask this question. but is that really the thing we should be focusing on when it comes to this mysterious word called love. when I think about this question several things come to my mind. My first thought being:

  • Will we ever really be able to put a textbook definition on that word?

I took some time to ask a few people what love meant to them and here were some of the answers I received: Love is knowing someone’s imperfections, past, and mistakes but seeing past them because you love them for who they are now. Love is unconditional. Love comes with a sacrifice. Love is willing to wait. Love knows no boundaries. (my personal favorite). Love covers up all of the hurt. Love is a lifelong commitment to your spouse that is represented by a silver (or gold, depending on your personal preference) circular object on your finger. Love is my granddad making me soup when I am sick. Love is kisses and hugs from family. Love is a phone call from a relative you haven’t talked to in a while. Someone said they don’t even think they have a definition for it. Which brings me back to my first point, Will we ever really be able to put a textbook definition on that word?

  • Another thing that comes to my mind when I think about the question, is the differences between love and lust.

Lust is a whole other ball park that we fall into. The textbook definition of lust is “a very strong sexual desire.” I see many girls who fall into that trap, of “but I love him” or this and that. But what about when all of those “feel good” moments go away? What are you left with? How empty do you feel then? Is love really the word you should choose to stick in that sentence?

  • But lastly the final thought after hearing that question is, how will I ever understand what it truly is?

Well, we have already established that love is never explained by just one statement followed by a period. And that love is never defined the exact same way by anyone. In my heart of hearts I honestly think that we will never truly know what love is, until we realize who love is.

  • So, who is love?

“He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.” 1 John 4:8

Love hung on a cross and love shed His blood for you. (yes you!) Love knew you before you were born. Love thought of you. Love formed you. Love sees the tears you cry and bottles every one of them up. Love has been there through it all. Love protects you. Love never gives up on you. Love never leaves you. Love never forsakes you. Love is always going to be true. Love is patient. Love provides for you. Love never dies. Love is always by your side. Love will keep you and love will strengthen you.

before you even thought about love, He thought about you. there isn’t a day that goes by that you aren’t on His mind. and you know why we love so hard, and so often? its simple really, because Love first loved us.

“if i lived a thousand life times and wrote a song for everyday, still there would be no way to say, how you have loved me.” -Letting Go//Steffany Gretzinger



lonely is not always a bad thing, Darling

As I sit down to write this, all of the reasons I chose to walk away from the bad relationships in my life escape me. Instead maybe I’ll just decide to write whatever the Lord lays on my heart.

Let’s start with this..

sadness because one has no friends or company.
“feelings of depression and loneliness”
(of a place) the quality of being unfrequented and remote; isolation.
“the loneliness of the farm”
Today as I sat down at the lunch table next to the people I used to be closest with, you see, I had recently let go of some of the longest friendships I have had. (that’s another story, for another day) But anyways, we were still on good enough terms to still be civil and sit together and hangout occasionally. But today something resonated within me. I had never in my life, felt as alone as I had at that moment. It was as if I was on the outside looking in. They were conversing and laughing, but not once was there a word directed towards me. Not even a single glance. Everything in me wanted to just take my lunch tray elsewhere, but, I stayed. During my stay I endured what seemed like forever of being ignored and excluded, and for somebody who is usually outgoing and talkative, this was uncomfortable for me. But even with what seemed like torture, God taught me something.
Later that day, after the long awaited physics class I was walking to my car. I saw them, they were talking and walking towards one of their cars. It was parked right next to mine. Not once did anyone make eye contact with me. Not once did anyone ask me if I wanted to come along. Not once did they even offer a wave bye. I soberly got in my car and drove off. Feeling even more empty than I did at lunch, I reached my breaking point. I drove to the burger king parking lot and I cried. Loneliness was all I could feel. It enveloped me. I longed to just be in the presence of someone who cared and loved me.
So I drove to a friends house. She is a wise young woman who I knew I could open up to. I went over and she opened the door with a sweet smile. We went to the kitchen and I instantly poured my guts on the table. All of the heartache and loneliness I had felt that day was there, out in the open, for all to see. After a quiet pause, her words started mending me back together again. Thinking about it now.. I could hear Jesus’ sweet voice, speaking through her, and He was saying, “I protect you, because I know that under temptation you would fail.” and “I hide you under my wings and keep you safe from those who would seek to devour you.” I could hear His voice so clearly. She ended with, “Sometimes it’s a good thing we don’t get invited because it’s like He’s saying, I’ve got you, you’re safe here with me. Don’t worry my beloved.”
Hearing these words, I light heartedly smiled in agreement. Guiltily not really taking in the words she was saying right at that time. Until later on that night, I was bible journaling and I came across a scripture that I would like to share with you..
Psalms 100 : 1-4 & 6
1. I will sing of steadfast love and justice;
to you, O Lord, I will make music.
2. I will ponder the way that is blameless.
Oh when will you come to see me?
I will walk with integrity of heart
within my house;
3. I will not set before my eyes
anything that is worthless.
I hate the work of those who fall away;
it shall not cling to me. 
4. A perverse heart shall be far from me;
I will know nothing of evil.
6. I will look with favor on the faithful in the land,
that they may dwell with me;
he who walks in the way that is blameless
shall minister to me.
This scripture says to me that this walk we take daily as believers, is not for everyone. In verse 3, it says “I hate the work of those who fall away, it shall not cling to me.” That in itself states that we are going to encounter those in our lives that just are not going to walk  the path of righteousness. Even people we thought had our best intentions are going to have to be severed from our lives. Those friendships and relationships shall not cling to us.
So in the lonely and in the abandonment, just know that He will always be there. He will always be the one to give you that fulfilling feeling you long for. And even in the lonely, look at it as this: He is protecting you and is keeping you safe by not even giving the enemy a chance to sift you.
He sees the potential in you, and He sees the yearning of true change and He is giving you a time of rest. Don’t look at the lonely days as days of sadness, but as in resting in Him. Searching Him out. Seeking His face. Letting His love reign in you and over you.